Something Odd

[jarandhel]

There's something about myself that I don't really understand... thought I'd write it down here, put it into words and maybe figure it out. The more I read about abuse and cults, the more I see where HOPE went wrong. I can also see how they might have gone about achieving their initially stated goals in a positive manner. Part of me would like to make a new group and do that. But I know, even done right this time, that such a group is unneeded. There would be no point or purpose to it. I guess I just feel an urge to do it because I'd be proving to myself that I could do it right, and that'd help give me back some of the confidence in myself that I still feel is lost to me, because I don't entirely trust myself after helping to create the cult HOPE became.

*shrugs* It's something I'll work through, in time. :)

Comments

no hope?

[arhuaine.livejournal.com]

I think you're right, that it's an idea that is not needed. And even if it was needed, I think the impact of what happened with HOPE would make it very difficult if not ipossible, for a replacement group to be positively recieved by the otherkin community. Even if it was done in the best possible way, it would be fiercly resisted just on principle.

Re: no hope?

[jarandhel.livejournal.com]

I don't know about that... IF there was a demonstrable need that an organized group could fulfill within the otherkin community, and if that group was open and aboveboard in their dealings and reasonably good at what they did, I think finding support for it wouldn't be hard.

The real problem, though, is that there is no demonstrable need... so any attempt to try to fill needs that don't really exist is just going to end up devolving along the same lines that HOPE did into a means of controlling others, and making them into the perfect little pretend community that the people or person in charge of the group has envisioned, rather than the authentic community of individuals that we already have.