*waves*

For those wondering where I am, I have now made it home safely and without incident. Was forced to stop a few times along the way to rest, which made the trip considerably longer than it would otherwise have been. Giving Reiki attunements last night was great, and really energized me, I was feeling very awake and alert when I dropped people off. That faded, though. *chuckles* I'm feeling pretty tired now, so I am heading to bed and will probably not be up until late in the afternoon/early evening. Thankfully, it's new years day, so I'm not missing much except parades and shit.

Btw, more Reiki-foo is coming... much much more Reiki-foo. You have been warned. ;-)

G'night all. *waves*

As Promised, More Reiki Foo

Last night, I gave many more Reiki attunements than I had imagined I would. It was quite an experience. And fairly early in the course of them, I decided that the long ritualized version of the attunement process really made me feel awkward and uncomfortable. I didn't like it, and chose to use a simplified version instead for the majority of the attunements I gave.

The reason for that, though, is that it made me feel silly. Especially when working from a checklist and having to look up what to do at each step. It lacked the smooth flow I've always seen from other Reiki masters I've known. But then, that's to be expected... they have a lot more experience giving them than I do. I'm still learning to give attunements. It's not really fair or rational to be judging myself by that standard.

Ultimately, my problem is that I'm taking myself too seriously at the moment. I felt silly and awkward, and instead of relaxing, laughing, and embracing the silliness and allowing myself time to learn, I tensed up and changed tactics to a method I could be more comfortable with. It may be that in the end I'd decide that I prefer the simple attunement anyway, but I haven't given the long form a fair try yet... not really.

I need to learn to relax and have fun while giving attunements. Tensing up just restricts the energy flow, no matter what technique I'm using. And I think, maybe, it would benefit me to become truly proficient in the traditional techniques before moving on to exclusively using the advanced attunement technique from Imara. A solid grounding in the basics, so to speak.

Hmm... you know, I think there are some stuffed animals here big enough that I could practice on them till I have the steps of the attunement process memorized... maybe that would make me feel less awkward while practicing on people, if I could at least do it without having to refer to a checklist for each step. And practicing on a stuffed animal seems a fairly good way to help me get over concerns about looking silly while doing it. *chuckles*

Edit: I think pretty much the only reason it bothers me that I didn't give the long form more of a chance last night is that I know when I'm receiving attunements I much prefer the long highly ritualized form. The short form usually makes me think "It's over already?" no matter how intense the energetic effects of the attunement. So, whether or not the short form works (and I know it does), using it makes me feel uncomfortable because I (consciously or unconsciously) compare my methods to those I prefer to have used on me by other Reiki Masters. I basically want myself to become the kind of Reiki Master I would prefer to have working on me.