Introducing... me

I'm not really one for a journal... never cared for the real version, my parents always found it and read it no matter where I left it in the house, and it always seemed kind of futile... like recording for posterity something nobody really cares about anyway. After all, it's not like anyone is writing back... I think that's actually why I started this one, because this one gives the option for people to read it and write back. I don't really know what to write... I'm a fairly unusual person, and this stuff is going to be out there on the Internet for anyone to read, including potential future employers, so I'm a little intimidated... what can I tell you about myself? Well, my name is Jarandhel Dreamsinger, Jarin for short... actually that's not my legal name, but I don't actually like my legal name and I am planning to legally change it some day. I'm 20 years old, male, bisexual, poly, pagan, and otherkin. I have brown hair, brown eyes, and look rather elfin, though I've been putting on a bit of weight lately that diminishes the effect somewhat. One of these days I'll put a photograph up of me and my boyfriend, when I figure out all of the controls.

I guess that's enough for an introductory post for my journal... I'll write more later, maybe even later on tonight.

-Jarin

the story of my nonexistent life

Well, I'm bored and in the mood to write more, so I guess the next thing for me to talk about is my life, such as it is. I don't have one. I'm not just bitching either, I really don't have one. I have seen my boyfriend exactly twice in the past two years, though I'll soon be spending five wonderful days with him. I don't have a job right now, or for a long time prior to this, because I have to drive my father and grandmother to doctors appointments... my father is on disability and my grandmother is 91 and suffers from senile dementia and, not too long ago, broke her hip. Since my grandmother broke her hip, her senility has increased a thousandfold to the point where she can no longer be left alone for even brief periods of time, so when I'm not driving them around I am either taking care of her (which my father is not patient enough to manage) or taking some brief time on the computer. Today is actually the longest time I have had on the computer in months, thanks to my mother's work schedule for the day and a lack of appointments. I'm not being idle while taking care of her, though, I've also been looking into bettering myself... working on my writing abilities and looking into schooling that would give me marketable skills to get a job should I ever have any free time. Some kind of job that I could do from home, or at least mostly from home, would be best... I've been looking into massage recently, because of a close friend of mine who was a massage therapist, and I may actually settle on that, but my state is currently undergoing a lot of changing legislation involving the practice of massage as a business, so I want to wait and see what the new laws turn out to be before deciding on a school... I want one that is prepared to conform to them. Other than that, and my writing which I may some day be able to sell if I get good enough, I don't have any other prospects for a job, but I did recently manage to convince my parents to give me something for taking up, very literally, almost all of my time... it's not much, only $20 a *week*, but it at least gives me some money to save up with.

Well, I think that's about enough whining for now. I'll write more later.

-Jarin

Appointments

Just wanted to explain a point in my last entry... I said that almost all of my time is taken up by my father and grandmother's appointments, even before she broke her hip. That probably sounds like I'm exaggerating, but you must understand... my father is diabetic, and had his toe amputated due to infection, and has severe eye trouble, AND suffered from chronic heart failure in either July or August of 1999, which is when all of his health problems date back to. Because of this, it's a rare week that doesn't have several appointments for him, plus any appointments for my grandmother (which have increased since her accident), plus the regular things of food shopping, and any other errands that need to be run that my mother can't do because of her work schedule. These are things that, before my father's health declined, he could have done himself, but now my mother and I are the only people in the family capable of driving, so that which she can't do falls to me.

I just thought I should explain that.

-Jarin